My very own passion in life

The Quranic verses have become my constant companion in life nowadays. I would mentally read the verses whenever I am driving, or when I am gardening, or when I am looking at the sky or the clouds out of my window. When I was in New York walking down the streets or having my coffee at the Starbucks and not surfing the internet on my phone, I would memorise the Surah ArRahman mentally while my eyes were observing the people walking outside. Sometimes I feel I am wierd but that habit does not really bother me. It rather makes me happy and sometimes high. Arabic Language has two aspects which could be very challenging mentally and that is the configuration of the verbs and the grammatical nuances. Mastery of the verb configuration could be very difficult and frightening. Many give up learning the subject because of fear of it. The wonderful part of it is that once you crystalise the patterns, the fear just dissipates. With me the understanding of the puzzles came one day like a bang bang boom after years of plodding through what could not make sense at all. It happened at the point when I was about to give up. I bought and read through most of the grammar books recommended by friends. I joined a number of discussion groups of friends who are really good in the language. I put aside my ego and shyness and openly admitted my need of help. I strongly believed that God must have listened to my prayers for enlightenment. Once the understanding came like a bang like that I held on to it closely to my heart. Even today I would be mentally conjucating and configuring Arabic verbs and grammar just like I do in memorising the Quranic verses. This passion and committment has helped me tremendously during my earlier grieving moments. I am ever so grateful for those crazy and difficult years of hanging on. My beloved husband knew of my passion for the Arabic verbs and he used to make fun of me saying ' you and your qala and qalu' which means ' he has said and they have said'. Even at the point of writing this I am still as fascinated as I was at the beginning of my relationship with the language.